Hi everyone,
Sorry I haven't posted in a LONG time! Life has just been crazy busy and it doesn't slow down for anyone. I am so overwhelmed right now with school and home and life and everything. I am behind in school, and never feel perfect anymore and I cannot find a good balance between cancer life and being normal. I am having back spasms most likely due to scar tissue build up, I cannot sleep, I have heart burn, I continue to lose weight, my blood sugars are all over the place and quit frankly CANCER SUCKS. I cannot have a job due to being tired all the time and cant do sports because i bruise too easy and I am tired, my teeth are slowly deteriorating, my kidneys are exhausted, my heart is exhausted I am exhausted. When will life be NORMAL again?? I am just having one of those nights that everything is going wrong. I am physically, emotionally, and mentally tired. Do you think if I had the choice of having and ipad or every special treatment all the backstage passes all of the trips, being skinny and having cancer I would chose that over being health and normal and in sports, in school, having friends, having a job, being able to be out in the sun, being a normal weight, having normal things NO I would much rather be HEALTHY. This is one of the hardest things for me with my siblings. I don't like being sick or losing my hair 3 times or losing weight having tons of doctor appointments missing school. All I want is to be normal like everyone else. I love all the experience I have gotten and I have a totally different life because of what I have gone through. But knowing there is a possibility of losing the fight is TERRIFYING. The emotion part of this is the hardest. Seeing your parents be so worried about you and to see the fear in their eyes is not comforting. All i can say is I would NEVER wish this upon ANYONE. There is my little rant and a little glimpse of what goes on in my head. Please just continue to pray for strength and for the doctors to find a cure!
Love you all
~Cora
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Christmas Break
Hi guys!
Sorry it has been so long since my last post! Christmas break has just flown by! I cannot believe we go back to school in 3 days! I have been enjoying time with family and friends and relaxing! This year has flown by. February 9th with mark 1 year since my relapse. It doesn't feel possible! Can it really be a year since the day I was sitting in the doctors office and feeling like I couldn't breathe and my world was caving in around me. 3 weeks ago my doctor suggested that I should stop my chemo infusion I will continue on oral chemo tho. This set of chemo has been very harsh on my kidneys and heart. From the second round of chemo I knew it was hard on my heart. But I have been dealing with kidney problems for probably around 4 months. I have full trust in my doctors and my faith. I am really excited to stop this chemo for 6 weeks and see what happens! I am getting very tired of this continuous treatment. So that is the latest and greatest! But other than that nothing is new. I am very grateful for everyones support! A lot of people never get to experience what I get to experience some bad some good and some amazing!
xoxo
Love you all
Cora
Sorry it has been so long since my last post! Christmas break has just flown by! I cannot believe we go back to school in 3 days! I have been enjoying time with family and friends and relaxing! This year has flown by. February 9th with mark 1 year since my relapse. It doesn't feel possible! Can it really be a year since the day I was sitting in the doctors office and feeling like I couldn't breathe and my world was caving in around me. 3 weeks ago my doctor suggested that I should stop my chemo infusion I will continue on oral chemo tho. This set of chemo has been very harsh on my kidneys and heart. From the second round of chemo I knew it was hard on my heart. But I have been dealing with kidney problems for probably around 4 months. I have full trust in my doctors and my faith. I am really excited to stop this chemo for 6 weeks and see what happens! I am getting very tired of this continuous treatment. So that is the latest and greatest! But other than that nothing is new. I am very grateful for everyones support! A lot of people never get to experience what I get to experience some bad some good and some amazing!
xoxo
Love you all
Cora
Sunday, December 16, 2012
The latest
Hello Everyone,
So I feel very special because I get to blog today on my sisters mac! It makes me very happy! So I feel like it has been forever since my last blog so let me fill you in on what has happened lately! I was suppose to get my Chemo last Friday the 7th but my protein in my urine was too high. This is what tells the doctors that my kidneys are functioning good or bad. Which it was too high so I could not get it. So we returned this Friday and I had to do a 24 hour urine test which sounds so delightful let me tell you! It is where you have to collect your urine for a whole 24 hours which shows how your kidneys are functioning. So we went in to clinic and my counts were good and my kidney function was good! So I was able to get Chemo this week! My doctor told me and my mom Karen that he thought it would be good that I only get one more dose of the infusion of chemo. I will continue to take my daily oral chemo but the infusion is the one causing the kidney problems and heart problems. When I was in Memphis I got something that was called elongated q-t which is where the beats of the heart are longer than what they are suppose to be. When it is longer than what it is suppose to be I could just drop over dead at any moment. They fixed this by cutting my list of drugs in half that I cannot take like benadryl. This makes it very difficult when I have symptoms to find something to use to make me feel better. So with not getting this infusion my kidney function and my heart should get better! I have still been so tired and we have not figured out the cause except I am sure a lot of it is just from being on chemo for so long. I am very comfortable with the idea of giving my body a break. I have complete faith in my doctors and in Jesus. He has never failed me and always has my best interest at heart. Along with my doctors I know for a fact that he always has my best interest at heart. Switching the subject but I cannot believe that Christmas is 9 days away! I am so ready for snow!! Santa always makes a big visit to all the St. Jude patients at clinic! So I don't have much more to say!
See you all next week!!
Love you all!
Cora Peters
So I feel very special because I get to blog today on my sisters mac! It makes me very happy! So I feel like it has been forever since my last blog so let me fill you in on what has happened lately! I was suppose to get my Chemo last Friday the 7th but my protein in my urine was too high. This is what tells the doctors that my kidneys are functioning good or bad. Which it was too high so I could not get it. So we returned this Friday and I had to do a 24 hour urine test which sounds so delightful let me tell you! It is where you have to collect your urine for a whole 24 hours which shows how your kidneys are functioning. So we went in to clinic and my counts were good and my kidney function was good! So I was able to get Chemo this week! My doctor told me and my mom Karen that he thought it would be good that I only get one more dose of the infusion of chemo. I will continue to take my daily oral chemo but the infusion is the one causing the kidney problems and heart problems. When I was in Memphis I got something that was called elongated q-t which is where the beats of the heart are longer than what they are suppose to be. When it is longer than what it is suppose to be I could just drop over dead at any moment. They fixed this by cutting my list of drugs in half that I cannot take like benadryl. This makes it very difficult when I have symptoms to find something to use to make me feel better. So with not getting this infusion my kidney function and my heart should get better! I have still been so tired and we have not figured out the cause except I am sure a lot of it is just from being on chemo for so long. I am very comfortable with the idea of giving my body a break. I have complete faith in my doctors and in Jesus. He has never failed me and always has my best interest at heart. Along with my doctors I know for a fact that he always has my best interest at heart. Switching the subject but I cannot believe that Christmas is 9 days away! I am so ready for snow!! Santa always makes a big visit to all the St. Jude patients at clinic! So I don't have much more to say!
See you all next week!!
Love you all!
Cora Peters
Saturday, December 1, 2012
The story
Hey guys!
Sorry it has been a while since I have updated! I have been SO busy! It has all been so exciting! For those of you who go to BV you know it was hope week this past week! It was so amazing all of you were so supportive! I have not herd how much we raised when I hear tho I will put up a post! Then yesterday I got to go to The Story Tour. For those of you who don't know what that is it is a christian concert that I believe 7 or 8 christian artists perform the bible from genesis to revelations in songs. I was also honored to be able to be at the meet and greet after the concert so I got to meet Matthew west, Natalie Grant, Nicole Nordman, Jermey Camp, and Selah. There may have been a few more. It was truly amazing! Matthew west also prayed over me. But the concert in itself was amazing and a beautiful experience! Medical wise i am doing great! I am due for chemo next week so we will see if my counts will be good enough!
Thanks guys feel free to leave me a comment!
Love you all!
Cora Peters
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Recap Wednesday
Hey guys!
Happy day before Thanksgiving! Today is a big day for me! Today I have been fighting cancer for three years. Three years ago today I was in a operating room having a biopsy done of my tumor. I remember the surgeon saying if it is cancer you will come out with a broviak line. Which for those of you who don't know is a like that comes out of your chest that goes into the main vain going into your heart. Yeah I know scary . So of course when I wake up the first think I look for is my line and there wasn't one. So when my dad came in he was crying and I remember just telling him it is ok that I don't have cancer. To my surprise I remember him saying you started to bleed and that I did have cancer and I lost too much blood and they couldn't put in my line. I just sat there saying it would be ok and we would get through it. Today I cannot believe I have been dealing with this for three years. We have had our ups and our downs but we are still here and I am happy and feel good most of the time. I know most of you have no idea what it feels like to be in my shoes. I would not ever wish this on ANYONE! So please say nice things. Cherish Every Moment. You are not guaranteed tomorrow. Be thankful for good health and to have the people you have around you. My counts were good yesterday but I am still EXTREMELY tired I don't really know why I am so tired but that has been why I have not been at school. I get up and my arms and legs feel like 100 ton bricks.
Today I am thankful for modern medicine. I would not be here today if there were no chemotherapy treatments and insulin. I am happy for the time I live in.
I hope everyone has a happy thanksgiving surrounded by family and friends!
Love you all
Cora Peters
Happy day before Thanksgiving! Today is a big day for me! Today I have been fighting cancer for three years. Three years ago today I was in a operating room having a biopsy done of my tumor. I remember the surgeon saying if it is cancer you will come out with a broviak line. Which for those of you who don't know is a like that comes out of your chest that goes into the main vain going into your heart. Yeah I know scary . So of course when I wake up the first think I look for is my line and there wasn't one. So when my dad came in he was crying and I remember just telling him it is ok that I don't have cancer. To my surprise I remember him saying you started to bleed and that I did have cancer and I lost too much blood and they couldn't put in my line. I just sat there saying it would be ok and we would get through it. Today I cannot believe I have been dealing with this for three years. We have had our ups and our downs but we are still here and I am happy and feel good most of the time. I know most of you have no idea what it feels like to be in my shoes. I would not ever wish this on ANYONE! So please say nice things. Cherish Every Moment. You are not guaranteed tomorrow. Be thankful for good health and to have the people you have around you. My counts were good yesterday but I am still EXTREMELY tired I don't really know why I am so tired but that has been why I have not been at school. I get up and my arms and legs feel like 100 ton bricks.
Today I am thankful for modern medicine. I would not be here today if there were no chemotherapy treatments and insulin. I am happy for the time I live in.
I hope everyone has a happy thanksgiving surrounded by family and friends!
Love you all
Cora Peters
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Sisters
Hey guys!
I am so sorry it has been forever since I have blogged. My days have been running together. My stomach has been in a sorts of forms lately. They upped my medicine dose so I believe that is the problem. So since I posted last a little bit has gone on but not much! I have been to school a couple of times but not alot because of these stomach and being extermly tired. When I say tired I mean like can't move off the couch and when I do my legs feel weak and my arms are so weak I don't feel like I can lift them. I think it is from my counts being lower than normal. So there is my explanation for not being at school. So today I have been doing testing all day for chemo that I am suppose to get tomorrow. We shall see if I can. With the way I have been feeling I don't know if I will be able too. So that aside, I don't know if you have noticed the facebook thing going around about the being grateful! I know I am fifteen days late but I would like to start a trend on here for the month of november every friday when I post I will post one thing I am thankful for and I would like to hear what you guys are thankful for too! So here we go...
Today I am thankful for my sister Dorian. She is always there for me even when I am a pain in the butt! I am also thankful for my nonbiological sisters Shannon, Kalie, Janelle, Julie. You all thave stuck with me through good times and bad! So there is my first post of thankfulness! Now its your turn!
Love to you all!
Cora Peters
I am so sorry it has been forever since I have blogged. My days have been running together. My stomach has been in a sorts of forms lately. They upped my medicine dose so I believe that is the problem. So since I posted last a little bit has gone on but not much! I have been to school a couple of times but not alot because of these stomach and being extermly tired. When I say tired I mean like can't move off the couch and when I do my legs feel weak and my arms are so weak I don't feel like I can lift them. I think it is from my counts being lower than normal. So there is my explanation for not being at school. So today I have been doing testing all day for chemo that I am suppose to get tomorrow. We shall see if I can. With the way I have been feeling I don't know if I will be able too. So that aside, I don't know if you have noticed the facebook thing going around about the being grateful! I know I am fifteen days late but I would like to start a trend on here for the month of november every friday when I post I will post one thing I am thankful for and I would like to hear what you guys are thankful for too! So here we go...
Today I am thankful for my sister Dorian. She is always there for me even when I am a pain in the butt! I am also thankful for my nonbiological sisters Shannon, Kalie, Janelle, Julie. You all thave stuck with me through good times and bad! So there is my first post of thankfulness! Now its your turn!
Love to you all!
Cora Peters
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Scans
Hey Guys!
So my week has been crazy good! I have gone to school twice maybe 3 times I don't remember! But it has been a good couple of days! I have been super busy! I am working on hope week t-shirts now and it is alot of behind the scenes work that I did not expect! So tomorrow I have a chest CT scan which is where all my tumors are so if you all of you could say some prayers that they will show improvement but ultimately we want them to be GONE! I believe in miracles and I am praying for one! Also I have been getting alot of charlie horses in my hip and ankle so to pray for those to stop also! Other than that I am doing homework and working on hope week! So not much going on please continue to share my blog!
Love you all!
~Cora Peters
So my week has been crazy good! I have gone to school twice maybe 3 times I don't remember! But it has been a good couple of days! I have been super busy! I am working on hope week t-shirts now and it is alot of behind the scenes work that I did not expect! So tomorrow I have a chest CT scan which is where all my tumors are so if you all of you could say some prayers that they will show improvement but ultimately we want them to be GONE! I believe in miracles and I am praying for one! Also I have been getting alot of charlie horses in my hip and ankle so to pray for those to stop also! Other than that I am doing homework and working on hope week! So not much going on please continue to share my blog!
Love you all!
~Cora Peters
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